So last night i slept in card board boxes, refrigerator boxes actually. So i was getting this box ready for my bed with lots of duct tape, lots of duct tape. i made a completely closed off box for my bedroom so no wind would hit, me then a parlor to enter my box with. I assumed everyone would do something like this to keep warm i was wrong. Some of the girls had windows in their's and were going to freeze. i was honestly worried about them but, i stayed out of their business.

I slept on a tarp and in a 0 degree sleeping bag, it reminded me of camping in yellowstone national park when it snowed, it was chilly but i was relatively warmer than the others, i came out of my sleeping chamber and noticed a twenty degree temperature difference between the chamber and the parlor. Needless to say i was rather happy to be in the semi-warmth. Then i wondered about the people who actually had to live like this, i was very thankful for my house that i normally sleep in, but yet again i was also thankful for my box because without it i would be freezing.

i put polka dots all over it as you can see in my picture and told my dad repeatedly i wanted to go back home and get in my bed, but to keep our minds off of it we played games like hide and seek and sardines. I had a lot of fun last night and i hope to do it again sometime soon, but not the day before my beauty pageant again. Today i will be doing a beauty pageant and i hope i can share with the audience about my experience.

Would you ever sleep in a box for charity?

I was reading a blog today on datingish, asking for advice, and its seriously saddened me. I mean i felt like i knew these girls, mainly because i once was best friend with a girl like this. I refuse to mention any names. This friend of mine came from a broken home, her brother had a disorder that forced him to use a wheelchair most of his life, when her parents were together most of the attention went to her brother. This left my poor friend alone without parental enrichment, or disapline she needed and desired. I had been friends with her since i was in first grade and she was two years older than me, Because her father left them when she had begun middle school, she experienced the lack of fatherly protection i think every girl should have. So when she told me she was pregnant again this past summer, it truely hurt me that she hadn't learned her lessons the times before, not to mention avoided the emotional pain she had before when she had miscarriages.

Everytime she told me about the boys she dated they were all the same jerks who treated her like dirt who had a father that was abusive and left their family for some other woman to terrorize. The first one i actually met, hit her, and me it made me mad when she told me about this past boyfriend. She told me he made her feel attactive and beautiful; which she is but i don't reccomend how he told it too her, the last time i saw her we had been previously talking on the phone for weeks in advance of the visit. When i saw her again i realized she hadn't changed at all, it broke my heart and i decided i wouldn't talk to her anymore because i couldn't handle all the pain i felt for her.

She sought selfworth in sex, men, and the cmpetition for men. I wanted her to realize she was strong enough to not have a petty relationship

So i'm allergic to just about anything you can think of, and it truely sucks because i don't die from whatever i come in contact with i just break out. So i'm usually in a mosquito bite looking rash most of the time, it itches, burns, bleeds its absolutely awful! I've been sent home from school twice because of these rashes and the fear that its not an allergic reaction and may be contagious.

The other day i come hoome from a date with my boyfriend who has mono, and i seem to be a little more rosy cheeked than usual, and i begin to feel the signs of a small allegic reaction coming on. The next morning i have tiny littl bumps right below my right eye and i put my lotrizone ointment on it which usually works, the next day is monday and i wake up and while I'm getting ready i notice its not completely gone. That's completely fine it'll be gone the next day i think. at the end of the day i start noticing acne which is very rare for me, idk why its happening so i dab on a little mor lotrizone.

Tuesday morning i look like someone has beaten me I'm black and blue beneath my right eye and the rash has spread down my face. I got to school and everyone is wondering if i'm being abused, i tell them no it probably just another allergic reaction to something i came in contact with the past weekend. I go home dab on a little more lotrizone.

Wensday morning its not that bad but still no improvement the bruise-likeness is gone that's it. I dab on a little bit of lotrizone.

THURSDAY MORNING! I wake up with a leprosy-like rash all over the right side of my face from my brow to my jaw. its swollen and it hurt like hell! I get sent home right after the national anthem and my dad gets me to see a doctor asap. The doc i had seen before about a previous rash the week before looked at me and said "whoa. i see its worse" he hands me some pills my dermatologist recomends and i am not allowed to go back to school until tuesday. and my face has gotten worse not to mention fever puking and uncontrolable fatigue. and i can't put anything but vaseline on it.

What's wrong with me?! have you ever had something like this happen to you?! Any advice on making the burning go away?